Ok, so I’ve never done anything like this where I “blogged” about something really important and asked strangers for advice…but I’m confused and I need some un-biased opinions. So come on and tell me the truth…because I need the honest uncensored truth.
So I broke up with this guy at the beginning of the summer and he is my most recent ex. Now I am the one who left him not because he is a bad guy or anything, but because I wasn’t ready and I got freaked. He has full custody of his twin 7 year old girls. They don’t have contact with the mother more than once a year on their birthday. So when I’m in a relationship I want to be exactly what my partner needs and I’m only 19 so the thought of being a step-mother and wife already scarred me. Now It has been months and I haven’t seen him since the break up, but today I did the warrior dash with my family and he was there. I ended up doing the race again with him and hanging out with his group for a while. He reminded me of the guy I fell in love with and it was hard to think about everything and not feel guilty…he’s a great guy. I think I miss him.
So your probably like well what’s the problem there?
Well, about a month and a half ago I was on Bourbon for the red dress run when I ran into my first kiss. He is a bar back at a bar there and we’ve been hanging out a lot recently. He’s amazing and gorgeous…but I tend to run away after I get to close to someone and I don’t want to hurt him. So I had him friend zoned…but as you all know when you are highly attracted to someone and you get really drunk around them…it can turn bad really fast. So I ended up kissing him at the bar for the first time in 13 years and later throwing myself at him. He was respectful and declined. He knew I wouldn’t have done that if I weren’t drunk so he just took care of me and put me to bed. The fact that he didn’t take advantage of the situation really made me like him a lot more.
As you can see I am torn. An old love who I was close to marrying or something that could have always meant to be?
Or is it best to just not date at all until after college, because I’m considering that too!
tagged as: confsed. lost. boys. problems. help. needadvice. advice. dating. relationships. bar. warriordash. reddressrun.
posted on October 14, 2012